Cinnamon Dolce Lattes

It's almost 11 o'clock at night, and I'm still awake. Not because I can't sleep because I can. It's because I have so much running through my mind. I have work projects that are preoccupying my thoughts. Freelance projects that won't go away. My first dentist appointment in three years is the day before we leave... I hate the dentist. Taxes ... I just filed tonight ... free at last! Random responsibilities ... and ....

12 DAYS TO CANADA.

Tonight I'm researching homeless shelters, the ins and outs of the UBC chaplain rotation, the culture of UBC, and I keep having these thoughts pop up in my head: "What am I doing? There's no way I'll be able to figure out what we need to do with these projects. I'm just going to quit researching. It's above me." And the worst ... "God can't use me."

-What does a Cinnamon Dolce Latte have to do with it?-

Nothing. I just think it is the best drink at Starbucks. (It would taste really good right now. Maybe I'll get one this weekend.) And I just thought about how the founder of Starbucks probably had his moments when he thought there was no way he'd be able to pull Starbucks off.

-"God can't use me." Whatever.-

I think about the people in our group and how much God has already used them in their lives. There is no reason why God won't use all of us now. I had the opportunity to go to NYC again during this spring break. I was talking to my dad tonight about how I was kind of sad I wasn't going back to NYC because I was questioning God and why He wants me to go to Vancouver. And he said, "Renee, God wants you in Vancouver for a reason." I said, "Wow, Dad. You're right. I need to get these thoughts out of my mind."

Moral of the story... Don't question God. He knows what He's doing. He's pretty amazing like that.

...renee